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Back to Abnormality

Doesn’t life have a funny way of knocking you on your arse just when you feel like you’re finally getting somewhere?  Sawyer had been in his new school for a little over 6 months when the first lockdown hit. Just when he started to feel comfortable with his new routine, new classrooms, smells, sounds, and… Continue reading Back to Abnormality

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Guardian Angels Part Two

If you were to search for signs of autism in children on the NHS website, you’d find a whole host of symptoms that are nothing like anything Sawyer faces. He is more empathetic than many neurotypical adults I’ve met in my life, he can speak eloquently about his feelings, and these days he understands irony… Continue reading Guardian Angels Part Two

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Guardian Angels Part One

You’d think that, given the huge amount of trust needed to put your child into a taxi each day, that the local authority would be sympathetic and helpful in finding the right service for each child. Unfortunately that simply isn’t true.  Lloyd rode in the taxi with Sawyer for the first few days, and although… Continue reading Guardian Angels Part One

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A Decade of You

I rarely get emotional when my children have birthdays. I've never been the mum saying 'slow down, time' or 'please stop growing!' because, frankly, the early days were hard and I enjoy mumming more and more as they get older. I know you're not supposed to say that, but there we have it - for… Continue reading A Decade of You

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The Next Chapter

Whenever I’ve collaborated on a piece of writing, it has involved everything you would imagine it would: research, brainstorming, numerous conversations with ideas bouncing off one-another, and the merging of memories and thoughts. But with Sawyer as my co-writer, things will need to be a little different. Brainstorming now will consist of ideas being breathlessly… Continue reading The Next Chapter

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Ghost Writer

Hi. Ahem. Hello. You can’t tell but I’m blowing dust from my laptop and awkwardly smiling like I have a guilty secret to tell. I don’t. I don’t think? Maybe we'll find out. But first thing’s first – I hope you’re OK. I hope you are well, and I hope that if you are well,… Continue reading Ghost Writer

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Self-Doubt

There are times when you can forget that Sawyer is autistic, particularly when you are around him a lot of the time. But whereas when he was 2-years-old you could disregard or give reason to the differences in him for maybe an hour at a time, these days it comes as tiny snippets. Fragments of… Continue reading Self-Doubt

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Orientation

One of the most incredible parts of being an autism parent is having to make life-changing decisions before 10am, and then spend the rest of the day pretending it never happened. I left Sawyer’s EHCP meeting in a baffled haze at around 10.30am and made my way in to work for Christmas lunch. Mainstream school… Continue reading Orientation

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The Show Must Go On

Raising an autistic child often feels like a battle you might never win. And I’ve found that the best way to survive is to break down the difficulties in to smaller chunks - divide and conquer, so to speak. The only trouble with it is that the battles come fast and frequently, leaving little time… Continue reading The Show Must Go On

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‘Twas the Night before Christmas

(the autism way) ‘Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house Sawyer could hear everything – a clock ticking; a mouse The stockings weren’t hung by the chimney with care They were straightened obsessively, so almost thread-bare His sister was nestled all snug in her bed, While the world danced around in Sawyer’s head.… Continue reading ‘Twas the Night before Christmas