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Guardian Angels Part Two

If you were to search for signs of autism in children on the NHS website, you’d find a whole host of symptoms that are nothing like anything Sawyer faces. He is more empathetic than many neurotypical adults I’ve met in my life, he can speak eloquently about his feelings, and these days he understands irony… Continue reading Guardian Angels Part Two

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Guardian Angels Part One

You’d think that, given the huge amount of trust needed to put your child into a taxi each day, that the local authority would be sympathetic and helpful in finding the right service for each child. Unfortunately that simply isn’t true.  Lloyd rode in the taxi with Sawyer for the first few days, and although… Continue reading Guardian Angels Part One

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A Decade of You

I rarely get emotional when my children have birthdays. I've never been the mum saying 'slow down, time' or 'please stop growing!' because, frankly, the early days were hard and I enjoy mumming more and more as they get older. I know you're not supposed to say that, but there we have it - for… Continue reading A Decade of You

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The Next Chapter

Whenever I’ve collaborated on a piece of writing, it has involved everything you would imagine it would: research, brainstorming, numerous conversations with ideas bouncing off one-another, and the merging of memories and thoughts. But with Sawyer as my co-writer, things will need to be a little different. Brainstorming now will consist of ideas being breathlessly… Continue reading The Next Chapter

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Ghost Writer

Hi. Ahem. Hello. You can’t tell but I’m blowing dust from my laptop and awkwardly smiling like I have a guilty secret to tell. I don’t. I don’t think? Maybe we'll find out. But first thing’s first – I hope you’re OK. I hope you are well, and I hope that if you are well,… Continue reading Ghost Writer

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Orientation

One of the most incredible parts of being an autism parent is having to make life-changing decisions before 10am, and then spend the rest of the day pretending it never happened. I left Sawyer’s EHCP meeting in a baffled haze at around 10.30am and made my way in to work for Christmas lunch. Mainstream school… Continue reading Orientation

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Disco Dad

Friday was school disco day, and to our alarm surprise, Sawyer said that he wanted to go. After some gentle reminders about what the disco would entail, Sawyer dug out his Woody costume, kissed me on the cheek, and bounced out of the house with his dad in tow. However by the time they arrived… Continue reading Disco Dad

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Denial: The Husband Diaries

I sat on the end of the sofa and blinked slowly as my tired eyes followed Lloyd around the room. It had been only a few hours since Sawyer was given a formal diagnosis of ASD. Both of our children were in bed and my mind was still buzzing with it all - filled to… Continue reading Denial: The Husband Diaries

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Happy Meal

After school one day, I drove my children to our local Macdonald’s as a special treat. There was a time not long ago when I didn’t think Sawyer would ever feel the childhood elation of a random trip for fast food, and so each burger they consumed was as much a delight for me as… Continue reading Happy Meal

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Stolen Christmas

Then he growled, with his Grinch fingers nervously drumming, "I must find some way to keep Christmas from coming!"   When I was pregnant with Sawyer and I looked forward to the experiences parenthood would bring, Christmas was high up on my list. Growing up, I loved Christmas. I remember racing home from school on… Continue reading Stolen Christmas