Autism, Family, Uncategorized

Self-Doubt

There are times when you can forget that Sawyer is autistic, particularly when you are around him a lot of the time. But whereas when he was 2-years-old you could disregard or give reason to the differences in him for maybe an hour at a time, these days it comes as tiny snippets. Fragments of… Continue reading Self-Doubt

Autism, Family, Uncategorized

Orientation

One of the most incredible parts of being an autism parent is having to make life-changing decisions before 10am, and then spend the rest of the day pretending it never happened. I left Sawyer’s EHCP meeting in a baffled haze at around 10.30am and made my way in to work for Christmas lunch. Mainstream school… Continue reading Orientation

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Déjà vu

I have been too busy to feel inspired to write lately, and I'm slowly learning to give myself permission for that. But as I have started to feel more inclined to share once again, I started to actively seek inspiration. I rebranded my website, and I started reading my old blog posts. This one always… Continue reading Déjà vu

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The Show Must Go On

Raising an autistic child often feels like a battle you might never win. And I’ve found that the best way to survive is to break down the difficulties in to smaller chunks - divide and conquer, so to speak. The only trouble with it is that the battles come fast and frequently, leaving little time… Continue reading The Show Must Go On

Autism, Family, Tattle, Uncategorized

New Year’s Adaptation

Life is all about balance, I suppose. I try hard to ensure Sawyer has the same opportunities as other children (particularly his sister), but at what point do you accept that your child might just want to be left alone? That they're happier indoors? Lloyd and Piper went out tonight, to spend some time with… Continue reading New Year’s Adaptation

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‘Twas the Night before Christmas

(the autism way) ‘Twas the night before Christmas, when all through the house Sawyer could hear everything – a clock ticking; a mouse The stockings weren’t hung by the chimney with care They were straightened obsessively, so almost thread-bare His sister was nestled all snug in her bed, While the world danced around in Sawyer’s head.… Continue reading ‘Twas the Night before Christmas

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Happy Meal

After school one day, I drove my children to our local Macdonald’s as a special treat. There was a time not long ago when I didn’t think Sawyer would ever feel the childhood elation of a random trip for fast food, and so each burger they consumed was as much a delight for me as… Continue reading Happy Meal

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New Beginnings

I’ll never forget the first time Sawyer dropped a mince pie, picked it up, dropped it, picked it up again and placed it onto Santa’s tray. By the time his sixth year rolled around I was finally able to tell people that Sawyer was starting to get excited for Christmas. Although it happened far later… Continue reading New Beginnings

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Stolen Christmas

Then he growled, with his Grinch fingers nervously drumming, "I must find some way to keep Christmas from coming!"   When I was pregnant with Sawyer and I looked forward to the experiences parenthood would bring, Christmas was high up on my list. Growing up, I loved Christmas. I remember racing home from school on… Continue reading Stolen Christmas

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Floodgates

By the time Sawyer started school, most of my anxieties were fuelled by a fear that he would be misunderstood. He had not long since turned 4 years old when he went in to reception class, and had been verbal for only a few short weeks. Sawyer’s inability to keep still remained his overarching characteristic,… Continue reading Floodgates